Too Bad, So Sad…

Obscured

I’ve missed a couple of Fet Life events I signed up for. Being the responsible adult that I am, I sent a message to the hosts letting them know that I was unable to attend as planned.

Just once it would be nice to get a return message saying, ‘I’m so sorry you can’t make it. We’ll miss you.’ rather than the messages I do get. ‘Don’t worry about it. We have plenty of people coming.’ Way to make a person feel wanted…

A Bend in the Road…

Fountain at Thomas Square

I recently trusted someone with some personal knowldege, something I had done, something I enjoyed, something I wouldn’t admit to just anyone. I thought this person traveled along the same bent road I do and would understand my enjoyment. He didn’t and suddenly our friendship seems to be waning.

Perhaps my road is more bent than I thought…

Pier at Waikiki
[Pier at Waikiki]

I met at man for lunch today. We’ve been emailing back and forth for a while now and finally took that BIG step – meeting in person. The problem? Because, honestly, isn’t there always a problem?┬áHe’s married…

We started emailing as friends, lamenting our lives, but he can make me laugh and that seems to be a rarity these days. I already know all the traps so I had no intention whatsoever of meeting him (let alone doing anything else) when we first started communicating. But as I said, he can make me laugh so when he suggested coffee, I thought why not?

But as we sat there, talking, I kept wanting him to touch me – just a hand on my knee or my arm, nothing intense, but just… contact. I wanted him to make that connection. He was very proper, never touched me, didn’t push me into going off with him or into another meeting. He’s leaving that completely up to me.

So what’s a very lonely woman to do? I’ve been thinking about it all afternoon and I still don’t know…